Look at my life I aint have it easy Real cold Winters Sometimes It felt like it was the only season (Unh) 6 months long That mean you had to come 6 months strong They be like Ridge What's is you on All on my phone All in my home All in my crib All in my bag All in my shirt Just popped tags Aim for the Riches I just had rags They don't understand all the times we had All them nights I went out sad All in nem cribs aint have no mask Took my leg up out the cask then put my foot up on that gas Shordy I'm up in the mix I aint really tryna take no pics I'm ready to go Man It aint been Nan winter That done came by here one year And didn't have snow Shordy I was 19 whipping that veno round the corner with Timberland boots and a fro I aint have money I was damn nid poor Gotta make it look good You know how that go Man I be going so fast Ride right past They be like Ridge you gotta take it easy Eyything I'm doing right now I said I was gone do then But they aint believe me Just got cold outside I just bopped out You know that thats my season Just took a lost but I can't go Shordy you know I gotta get even I work everyday round the clock It seem like yall do this at yall leisure It's so many lights on my neck and my wrist yall mess around have a seizure I take a pic but I aint cheesing I'm cashing out on my visa I cant do this without Jesus I I was up north in a northface coat I was outwest rocking a beanie I was riding round playing that music so loud You can hear me before you can see me I had dreams of being on tv I was hungry and they aint feed me They tried to dim light Instead I kept on beaming I done went hard in the day time I done went hard in the evening My Granny Died I took it hard I was down in Mexico grieving They told me stop I told em nah shordy I just kept on believing She think about me at night I told her keep on dreaming I been sonning em since I was young They babies tell em drink pedialyte I was selling dreams I was putting that bug her in ear She prolly won't see me tonight I was hurt and I wasn't healing right I wasn't feeling right I wasn't living right I was locked in I done lost track of time Ion even know what a minute like I bossed up God led the way I done left it all in the back mirror I'm cool now I'm at peace They try tried to blind me I see clearer Im In the zone and they can't stop me Aint coming close cant get near it I'm out the way cuz they acting weird I put the truth up in every lyric

Welcome to the nighttime I'm in the dark but I might shine She tryna sell me something ion really want it but u might buy it I'm like a kite but I might dive tryna dodge the school to prison pipeline Give shordy a high 5 Nah I aint coming to yo side She said she bad I'm said I'm rich I guess we both lied I'm outta town I'm on a beach I'm on a boatside One touched my girl One tried to kill me and they both died He saw my style He ride my wave But its a low tide My Granny Died I saw my pops And then we both cried We aint show each other But inside it's so sad Thank God I got God without her feel I got no guide They show hate and then they say they don't mean nun by it I'm in the cut I'm out the way But no I don't hide My tired popped they tried to leave me on the roadside But You know that I aint finna go I'm on the dark side of the moon They tryna put me in a tomb They tryna lead me to my doom Have you seen a flower bloom Have you ever been in a cocoon I been thinking bout the winter since June This the dark side of the moon Me Ion like to assume But im finna come soon Tell my haters make room Cuz I got alot to prove I been waiting on the winter since the womb

What's a generation without general direction? What's the point of giving love if you don't get affection? What's a curse to a man who never get a blessing? What's destiny if you don't know who you are to be destined? What's a answer to a question if you used to guessing? What's a insurrection? What's a new election? What's the point of making a promise if you forget it? Tell me what's a president if he aint even present? What's the point of doing right you don't go to heaven? Tell me how could you go right if you don't know what left is? Tell me how could you know God if you dont feel his presence? And tell me how you know his word if you aint never read it? How you feel the pain in his blood if you never bled it? What's the point of reading a verse if you never get it? What's the point of drawing conclusions if it's alledged? What's the point of doing work if you don't get the credit? Tell me who you pay when you indebted? What's the point to get up and go if you don't know where you headed? Tell me who in this world can heal you when you don't trust the medic? How could you make an honest living when the pay is pathetic? Tell me where the pics without the edit? Why I feel like I'm repeating myself when I never said it? What's a brand new day when you giving into yo old habits? What's the point of talking about something when you don't know about it? If they know you but they don't feel you what good is omnipresence? And If everybody turn on you what good is all the status? You make a decision what good is it to regret it? You aint mean it what good is it for you to have even said it What is a record deal nowadays without the leverage? What's the point of stressing on something that you can't even manage? How is you gone miss something but you took it for granted? And How is you gone hurt someone but can't live with the damage?

Fake attitude Fake confident Fake problematic Fake controversial Fake fake fake fake Fake tough Fake hitter Fake lover boy (Fake) Fake superhero with no cape Fake deep Fake woke Fake education system Taking everything they can take Real hate Forced positivity Fake optimism Real gun in a fake case Real kid in a fake home (go there) Real teens off fake drugs (go there) Real dude in a fake world (go there) Real hate with Fake love Fake politicians make Fake desicisons Fake run so they cant go the distance Fake prize for a Fake competition No to mention Fake God for a real Fake religion Push Real light but it aint no fuse Real blues but it aint no clues Real kid in a Fake school Real conquesences with fake rules Fake news Fake conversations Fake options Fake choice When you cant choose Real sad Real hard Real detrimental How you gone see when you gotta fake view Real thoughts inna fake body Real drinks inna fake party Real girl with a fake friend Now you real hurt with a fake sorry Real virus with a fake cure Everybody need help but it dont come quick Fake energy Fake laughs Come on everybody Fake smile for this real fake pic Real kid in a fake home (go there) Real teens off fake drugs (go there) Real dude in a fake world (go there) Real hate with Fake love Fake politicians make Fake desicisons Fake run so they cant go the distance Fake prize for a Fake competition Not to mention Fake God for a real Fake religion Push Real man with a fake dream Real heart with a fake beat Real problem with a fake stance Real vegetables fake meat Real light but no bulb Real taps but no touch Real downs with no up Real likes but no love Real kid in a fake home (go there) Real teens off fake drugs (go there) Real dude in a fake world (go there) Real hate with Fake love Fake politicians make Fake desicisons Fake run so they cant go the distance Fake prize for a Fake competition Not to mention Fake God for a real Fake religion

Visit me in my dreams for a sec I won't be long Let's catch up on some things Can you please pick up the phone I cant stop thinking about you when I'm on my own (Awehhhhaa) Whered I'd be without you (adlib) I don't know Young boy Stuck in the silence He don't know where to go When he's up inside it Crying Fighting Finding himself hiding (Finding himself hiding) Wondering who will find him Someone comes beside him Smiling She's said it's okay Wipe yo face stop all the whining Everything'll be just fine It's all in God's timing He started climbing When he started trying We he looked back He aint notice she started dying Visit me in my dreams for a sec I won't be long Let's catch up on some things Can you please pick up the phone I cant stop thinking about you when I'm on my own (Awehhhhaa) Whered I'd be without you (adlib) I do not know Your second born had told me to tell you hey I was trapped in my mind It honestly slipped away Your first born He actually moved out of state (I usually only talk to him when he pick up the rent) Your 3rd born she actually doing great Connecting more with her kids But thank you for the crib If it was up to me I rather have you in the crib where I live It's only passed down the generation Can't help but think bout the days we used to talk outside You always gave me my ways Was I your favorite guy The smile you put on my face when I Iooked in your eyes (Still feel that feeling today) But that's the feeling okay (Yuh yuh yuh) Visit me in my dreams for a sec I won't be long Let's catch up on some things Can you please pick up the phone I cant stop thinking about you when I'm on my own (Awehhhhaa) Whered I'd be without you (adlib) I do not know

When it's up it's like I aint coming down When its hard I feel its no one is around I wonder where did you go Go Go Go Go

It's been a long time since I lived with my mom's and my pops I'm 28 I was 21 when I left the house At 17 I was dreaming about making it out I told myself I need some Ms inside my bank account I'm used to giving my all and getting little to nothing I'm used to people seeing me and then jump to assumptions I mean jump to conclusions I made something from nothing I see the devil everyday tryna come for my comfort I see the hate I'm not wondering bout where did it come from I'm used to giving all I got to the people that want some I'm working hard everyday I stack and make me lump sum I told my steppops back in the day that I would become some My pops looked me in the eye and told to me get serious So I got on my grind I done fought through the tears It's been multiple years I had multiple fights I had multiple days when I didn't sleep through the night I done fought through the fears And I had to make an ammends Because I got lost in my sins I'm taking that loss on the chin I came here to win I'm focused on making it in Mistakes that I made in the past I hope I don't make em again Nowadays I live my life and know the meaning of it I tell myself when it get hard Just remember to love it The devil pull me to the ground I put my feet above it Just keep it cool and keep believing and dreaming beloved What's a life without a little bit of controversy Oh Lord have mercy You showed me all the things that'll hurt me I call my mom from time to time and she usually worried I pray the Lord give her peace and all her burdens are burried I live life in a hurry I went hard in my 20s I done made it to 25 tryna make it to 30 My spirit dirty I'm tryna make it clean thats for certain The fallen angels are lurking and their king is the serpent My days are getting shorter My life is moving faster I love the church But I can't put my faith in a pastor Mom's and Pops wasn't together guess that Imma bastard The feelings last so long You can hear the pain in my laughter I make music with passion Back then they thought I was average Imma eat a beat You can take what I don't eat right after I'm the type to want it straight No need to chase it or bag it Got God in my music I don't need a label to back it I'm so confident in him and myself They Thought I was bragging A beam to the world And They come to me like I'm a magnet I'm striving everyday to get away from dirty habits See sum bad I take it away See sum good then I add it But my righteousness dirty rags to the one thats above me The way you talk to me at my lowest show that you love me A couple months ago in my life it really got ugly Sometimes I wish my Granny was still alive just to hug me But Nowadays I live my life and know the meaning of it I tell myself when it get hard Just remember to love it The devil pull me to the ground I put my feet above it Just keep it cool and keep believing and dreaming beloved

Feeling myself Lately I'm healing Lately I'm getting away from the things thats killing myself Lately I been kicking it with me I chill with myself How could I ever be real to you if I aint real to myself Lately I'm focused I aint hoping I'm just doing what I'm pose to Im just bickin back n bool and big and bad And I aint boasting I aint going out without a fight I'm swinging it aint over And im swinging so much you thought that my name was Sammy sosa I aint sick So I could not Pop a pill with myself Imma get rich one day and imma split a mill with myself I just took myself out to eat and split the bill with myself How you expect me to deal witchu If I cant deal with myself Lately I been reaching for the stars I could see a new level Lately im dodging the devil Ironically still hot as ever If he close then please Lord reveal him I'm tryna find ways to kill him They asking me how im doing and I don't know what to tellem I guess Im just Feeling myself Lately I'm healing myself Lately I'm getting away from the things thats killing myself Lately I been kicking it with me I chill with myself How could I ever be real to you if I aint real to myself Lately I been eating some foods that's been good for my health Cooking so much in the kitchen They thought that I was a chef And I been focusing on some things thats gone gain me some wealth Quitting my 9 until 5 F it I'll bet on myself Dodging the negative vibes Putting the hate on the shelf I see the hate in yo eyes Is that a H on yo chest You is the superman type You thought yo last name was Kent I'm seeing everything thatchu doing and I'm not impressed Uhh Imma go and get me some cake Imma bake it myself I'm the type to what see I want and then I take it myself If they don't give me a way F it I'll make it myself No I can't wait on Noone else I barely wait on myself Lil baby if outside too much for you Then stay in the house Some Make a way Some Make an excuse and im making it out Some Make a move Some making it up And I'll make an account Some block the hate Some blocking the road So I make me a route Cuz im just feeling myself Lately I'm healing myself Lately I'm getting away from the things thats killing myself Lately I been kicking it with me I chill with myself How could I ever be real to you if I aint real to myself Lately I been feeling okay I been taking some steps It's been hard and I feel like I really been helping myself Guess I aint used to being the one that be needing some help Im so used to doing it on own like aint no else Imma get it and get it done get it no matter the amount After I get it I'll get it again and then im giving it out And I aint giving in giving up getting out Getting it where I gotta And they know when I get it then imma go and make it count Lately I been watching the words that come up out my mouth Pacing myself I aint been running it all the time I'm sitting relaxing letting my feet recline on the couch You watching me you need to watch the kids that's up in yo house They make up the truth Make a story Before they make a dime I take my time You can see it If im lying im dying It's the signs of the times So im minding mine So you can look in my mind And tell me what do you find Im just feeling myself Lately I'm healing myself Lately I'm getting away from the things thats killing myself Lately I been kicking it with me I chill with myself How could I ever be real to you if I aint real to myself I guess im just Feeling myself Lately I'm healing myself Lately I'm getting away from the things thats killing myself Lately I been kicking it with me I chill with myself How could I ever be real to you if I aint real to myself

I’m so up call me E.T I gotta girl and she not from the city I’m from the city sometimes I’m in DT I was just selling them CDs I was just putting in work for 365 times 5 Talm bout you wana be me They say it look good when they thought it was easy How you gone be me you can’t even see me I’m not the I’m not the 2 I’m not the 3 I’m not the 4 I’m not the one that was kicking ya door I’m not the one thats gone do this for show I’m not the one that’s gone be dodging smoke I am the one that’s gone go toe to toe And I been up in the mix for some years And I’m just tryna see just how it go I’m 6’2 they thought that I was going pro No I just get my MoneyBaggyo Imma giant tellem fee fi fo Imma go stack it just to see how it grow Sold it for the high Got it for the low Imma quit my 9-5 The money slow If they gimmie a bag you know Imma blow it Shouts out to Scimone Bae just called her The Poet Nah it’s The Poem If they don’t see best believe Imma show em They coming out west just to see what I’m on They come to the gym just to check out my form Tellem I been cold since the day I was born I’m up next I can feel it all up in my loins 2023 is the year that I’m touring Shoutouts to Sosa you know that I’m glowing Snakes in the grass Imma mow it They see me coming that’s something that you can’t avoid I enter the chat when I’m bored Imma big dawg not a BD Imma locked in the stu tellem free me I cannot switch I’m the same person that you see in real life That you see on T.V. Shoutout to Doodie and Peepee and Poopie and Mimi and Cece and my mama Fefe Meanwhile I’m just tryna put a billion on the board like I’m Jay Z or Riri or Yeezy I cannot (Mm) I cannot (whew) I cannot (hol on wait) I cannot go And I’m still the one that read that book almost three times Way back then when they thought I was slow He giving grace making the simple wise I remember days just praying on the floor That’s just how it go That’s just how it be I just want his living waters keep the tea They gone close the door and Imma get the key And ain’t no sense of being you I can be me I’m so up call me E.T I gotta girl and she not from the city I’m from the city sometimes I’m in DT I was just selling them CDs I was just putting in work for 365 times 5 Talm bout you wana be me They say it look good when they thought it was easy How you gone be me you can’t even see me I’m not the

They aint neva make em like me Imma one of one Im the type that chu can Put ya money on Watch out you can get blind staring at the sun When I come in it get hot Turn the air on Tellem shut up while I got this kid cudi on Hmph And if you acting funny Watcho buddy on They don't even care they lie to every single one of yall Been there Seen it all Did it all Done it all Imma problem you don't wana get involved It was a point in my life I aint know who to call Life like a seesaw Going back n forth Some say its priceless And some kill ya for a cost On a side note RIP to Young Dolph Why you always playing games Come on we adults You'll think after a while they'll get exhausted I had so many thoughts Man I almost lost it Tryna get my money long like a neck of an ostrich Always eating ramen I be using chopsticks Catch me riding to the lake Just to see what God did Ion even understand how you can be agnostic The world is mine I got infinite options In my own lane I do the boxes People talk so much i don't know who cops is Boa you hate so much you don't know who yo opps is I be timmy tucked They don't know where I been From the westside off of western and Ogden Ridgio entered the chat And I just logged in They aint neva make em like me Imma one of one Im the type that chu can Put ya money on Watch out you can get blind staring at the sun When I come in it get hot Turn the air on Shoes dirty so I put another pair on Tellem when I play ion play fair at all If they think that i care uh they're wrong Woke up to somebody taking shots air ball I'm the type to get gone like I aint there at all Talking down on my name in private But I hear it all They be unaware But the hate so clear (aw) Im type to go and get a bag then share (aw) You the type to see me ride past and stare (oh) Chiraq villain take a trip to my lair (oh) Name aint Rick gotta whole lotta Flare though Whole lotta music asking where did my chair go I love the people So I hit em with the peoples elbow Knock em out Turn a man knees to JELLO Oh he sleep he gone need a pillow They aint neva make em like me Imma one of one Im the type that chu can Put ya money on Watch out you can get blind staring at the sun When I come in it get hot Turn the air on

Nothing can hinder me I stay to myself I protect all my energy You cannot get rid of me I plan to be here for infinity years And im finna be They gone get sick of me You gotta be kidding me Thinking you ending me That really tickle me Think you offending me And you not even my enemy This like a gym to me Im running laps onna track And aint nobody near to me You not a peer to me How it appear to me You more like a banana peel to me Slipping up cuz you been tripping You might as well give up yo goals Tryna get to me been in the crib for 2 months Locking in But honestly It feel like a year to me I do it simply I can I record every day every week every month Aint no end to me Im sick of people Out here fornicating Then covering it up With the word polygamy Unfortunately if you out here like that in the world Then you really aint kin to me They fill em with venom Its constantly killing em They don't take the time to even see Its like this sea to sea People with bedebees Israelites ultimately Other nations are vultures to me Tryna take from the culture And ultimately They take more from us Thats on us too We aint open to see What we went through to get here Its over And COVID cant even make em see the Lord They repeat What they did to get here They cant beat it Pressure Its on em I make em learn a lesson If they think they really want it They think they that presence precious I dont even really want it That stuff make me sick You effing up I mess around and vomit

I'm looking for better days like Makaveli My palms sweaty My heart heavy I'm not ready My knees weak The pain grows My head hurts The love fades I cant find it But still search The tears dried They not wiped They still drip I love God I dodge fire I'm still lit I'm still turnt I'm still wild I'm still reckless I'm still damaged I live life I'm still average I'm still sane I still see I'm still woke I still love I still dream I still hope I still cope I still breathe I still choke I'm still tired I still work I'm still broke I'm still caught in the midst of trouble But won't evade it I still clock in my 9 to 5 I still hate it I'm good natured With bad habits That's Ill favored I still want reparations I'm still waiting I'm looking for better days like Mo3 They know it's me But still acting like they don't notice me I'm in a loop I'm feeling trapped I'm feeling boxed in My girl ain't feeling me Cuz my masculinity toxic I'm in the tropics I'm mentally prisoned like I'm not here I cant avoid it I feel a void I cannot stop it I try my hardest I feel for others but not regarded My bones are shaken I feel forsaken I feel forgotten I wana lock in But bills are coming I gotta clock in I'm not shopping So Stop asking I don't got it I'm not rich I'm not wealthy I'm not an object They try to take me They try to use me I won't allow it I'm outta space I'm outta orbit I'm on a comet I love my girl when she at the crib and she wear her bonnet I go outside I spit a verse and change the climate I from Chicago Where cracking cards And and petty crimes at At times it's big They found his body His momma crying His homies mad Retaliate They die behind it Endless cycle Never ending Never Finite I hurt my mama too I know what the pain her cry like I see his timeline I check the news I see the highlights I see the twilight I know what drunk like I know what high like I'm far from perfect I'm far from quiet I know what shy like I see the end I know it's coming I know what Bye like I'm looking for better days like Jaydayoungan Slowly and everyday I feel like I'm to something My heart is pumping My blood rushing My toes touching I wanted everything in the world But I chose nothing I chose life I chose love I chose peace I chose you in hopes of one day you'll choose me I chose purpose I chose abundance And chased a bag I ran around so much I lost everything that I had I made em cry I made em weep I made em mad I made em laugh I made em smile I made em glad I made em hurt I made em feel I gave em hell I went to school I came home I went to jail At times I tripped At times I stumbled But never fell I drive my car I ride my bike I took the L I'm in the club The girls chase I keep it player They see my work They know my name But never say it They in the party They see my music But never play it I go to work I write a song Then go to bed They know the truth They won't say it They still scared They still thirst They still hunger But not fed The whole word Don't subtract Do not add It's not a vibe It's not a trend It's not a fad I live a life With good days and some sad But can't act Like everything Is all bad